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Another Fresh Re-start

The flow of time has changed the form of my diary, from descriptive passages back in the last century to the most recent set of photo diaries, and has now undergone another 'metamorphosis' into a blog.

This is a recording of memories known as 'fragments of time'. Futher fragments will appear as time passes by. Please click on the panels on the top / side to move the timeline forward / backward for navigation.

• Jacky Nie

Moving Up

1st July, 2006.

Stepping into the 4th year of work.

Sunday

2nd July, 2006.

Shopping again...

Once Upon A Time

2nd July, 2006.

Hong Kong in the 50s

The Kowloon Walled City (九龍城寨)

If there is a time machine that can turn time backwards, I would wish to have a look at these scenaries. I saw these photos in books before and they gave me strong feelings about the past that is long before my existance. Life should be much more different from now or perhaps everyone was just living in a completely different world. But at least, this was Hong Kong. The photos above do seem to tell a lot of stories that makes me really wish to experience them on my own. Also I wish that one day, I will be able to create my own photo collection that tells story about my past.

Some of my very own photography can be found from
my separate photo diary - Click to view

Priorities at hand...

6th July, 2006.

Three current main things for settle right now.

1) Getting used to the new work environment and routines. The first few days become extremely tiring and after work hours became periods of "near-coma" experiences on the sitting room sofa. Work is so stressful and every single part of the body became so overwhelmed by tension. As warned by a friendly colleague : "You will never get used to this place... because you can never understand people at this locality"

2) Preparing for an exam I have planned for in September. Plenty of reading materials to go through with the limited off work (and conscious) hours. Also need to sort out the flight tickets / accomodations / other unsettled business related before this happens as well. Big check list.

3) Grandma's ill-health to be sorted out : Grandma got admitted to hospital with persistent physical discomfort for months and in fact, more appeared of a problem of an apparent depression and refused feed and weight loss and becoming too weak to move. Every one in the family already got exhausted with this after all this time and wish there is a way to get things sorted soon.

Life is definitely getting harder as one gets more mature. A lot of lessons to learn.

(Untitled)

7th July, 2006.

After discussion with the doctor on the phone, Grandma underwent emergency operation last night due to intestinal obstruction. There was a tumour causing complete obstruction and part of the colon was removed. All the pathology results are pending though I know what could be worrying in mind. She was looking frail on the hospital bed today. I don't have a religion and I never actually prayed, but I just wish she would be okay.

Her hands were cold and all I could do was to hold them and keep them warm.

(Untitled)

9th July, 2006.

「單身看」

9th July, 2006.

I have been taking a break away from everything today. Feeling too exhausted to deal with things and went to the bookshop this afternoon and found this book called "Odd one in". The author of this book depicts all ordinary happenings in life in an inspirating artistic point of view.

As for me, I am also trying hard to find my alternative point of view to deal with things in life too.

"任何事多都好似白紙有兩面，視符觀點角度"



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系列名稱：圖文城市
書名：單身看─香港生活雜記
作者： 白雙全 (圖文創作)
出版：傳達出版有限公司 及 70+ 文字/藝術工作室
設計：habitus
出版日期：2005年9月
定價：港幣$200
ISBN: 988-98663-2-3

詳細介紹：

「藝術認真無聊？」，尤其是白雙全這些「概念藝術」！

白雙全自2003年起於《明報》「生活」副刊「圖文城市•單身看」專欄發表的圖文作品， 令讀者留下深刻印象。繼《七一孖你遊香港》之後，白雙全繼續與讀者一起重拾生活點滴。

「參與式概念創作」聽起來像是有得食有得玩似的！本來「概念藝術」向來多關心藝術語言 問題，少食人間煙火；或以圖片紀錄創作過程、或以文字指導讀者思考參與，務求令藝術去 物質化。概念藝術的創意法規其實不離開幾度板斧(見本書附錄劉建華文章「X+Y=Z」)，但 白雙全創作的出發點，似乎更關心身邊的人和事。從他的這些作品裡，你甚至可以重構出他 每日的生活流程、他的友儕圈子、到那裡拍拖……甚至香港、國家大事。只要能舉一反三， 有感而發，題材竟是無窮無盡。

讀這兩冊「圖文城市」，像在重新學習如何「看」。白雙全在空間高度密集但人情極度疏離 的城市，以「無聊」抵抗森林定律。無論像「這麼近、那麼遠」一般給電話號碼上的鄰居撥 電話講恭喜發財、還是像「收集空氣」一般從超市買來給困在薯片包裝裡的空氣、或是在 「看一本在鏡世界裡的書」一般在鏡像裡讀聖經……均在以荒謬對抗異化，從而重拾人與人 之間、人與自然之間、甚至人與神之間似有還無的牽繫。這些細眉細眼的小聰明，人人都 曾經想過，卻不曾拿出來見人(尤其當你誤把橫寫的餐牌當成直寫看)，更不會勞師動眾，上 山下海去實現。愛讀豐子愷的白雙全，運用的雖然是攝影和文字，讀來卻同樣像禪心指月。 如果我們撇開藝術不談，這冊《單身看》其實更像一個又一個認真的創意遊戲，又或者香港 的另類導遊地圖，等待讀者按圖索驥，甚至自行發掘更多景點與趣味。

這兩冊「圖文城市」既不是漫畫又不是繪本故事集，介乎在詩集與日記之間。圖片先行文字 為輔，精簡的解說，留下更多的想像空間，有待讀者主動進入白雙全的思考世界。





作者簡介：

白雙全，男，基督徒。星期日《明報》「單身看」專欄創作人，畫家。後生仔，但喜歡看 豐子愷的漫畫，聽陳百強的歌，還有和別人分享日記。對人情有時婆媽得近乎老土。讀藝術， 但相信與人溝通更加重要。畢業三年，竟然可以藝術維生。1977年生於中國福建，1984年 移居香港。2002年畢業於香港中文大學藝術系，副修神學。為「伙炭」藝術家社群活躍份子， 二樓五仔工作室核心成員，現以美術教育維生。從事混合媒界及繪畫創作，以視覺藝術方式捕捉人與人、 人與自然之間的感通。



白雙全 Blog: http://www.oneeyeman.blogspot.com/

Continued - The bookmark

9th July, 2006.

I am using the receipt of this book as the bookmark. There is also a similar looking receipt printed in the same book too. (Note: Page 210 from 「單身看」, "給LC的情書")

Knocked out

10th July, 2006.

Work is indeed very tiring. I was getting too tired to do anything after off work this afternoon and feeling completely exhausted. I was getting too tired to even pay a visit for grandma, but apparently I was told that she did not look as bad as she was. I fell asleep unnoticibly immediately after dinner and missed about one and half hour of what is going on around at all - A complete 'knock out' and suddenly lost conscious again (it gets more and more often nowadays).

TV was showing a lot of different dramas but I lost my concentration on any of them. I was too tired to read as well.

A bit about TV

10th July, 2006.

Since starting to work few years ago, I used to like watching situation comedies in TV. These are the kind of light hearted programmes that requires not a lot of concentration spans and are more than enough in terms of enjoyment.

"高朋滿座" is quite a silly programme in TVB but is kind of halarious to watch sometimes. I like the way they phrase all commercial products into funny names.


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劇中詞語/搞笑字

高朋滿座

劇中詞語 現實詞語
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斷背心 斷背山
人生糯米團 人生馬戲團
親切的雞子 親切的金子
天國的雞批 天國的階梯
竹林牌早餐肉 梅林牌午餐肉
天幕下的果仁 天幕下的戀人
火舞涼瓜 火舞黃沙
連孖佛 連卡佛
LB LV
OJ便利店 OK便利店
當當補習社 當代書院
現實書院 現代教育
TAK TAK 朱古力 /
TIC TAC 薄荷糖 KIT KAT朱古力
名曲數星星 名曲滿天星
"吃緊掉"雪糕 Haagen-Dazs雪糕
I.B. I.T
DiFor Dior
"胃腩/衛懶" 衛蘭
側膊/側頭 側田
向宇宙出發 向世界出發
大長針 大長今
e道�鼮D 醫道
木蘭站 米蘭站
掂親死 殺牠死
豬•太唔易做 靚太唔易做/女人唔易做
紅罐曲奇 丹麥藍罐曲奇
法證烏冬 法證先鋒
辣酒人參 妙手仁心



皆大歡喜經典

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刮沙小學 喇沙小學
當夏枯草煲到乾水時 當四葉草碰上劍尖時
假如愛有湯意 假如愛有天意
芥蘭站 米蘭站
蔡婷婷 麥玲玲
凶宅電器 豐澤
王蝦米 王家衛
屈人寺 屈臣氏
大頭佛 連卡佛
一到新年食冬菇 一丈功成萬骨枯
窮冬瓜,富冬瓜 窮爸爸,富爸爸
盜版者博拉 盜墓者羅拉
廿二世紀拆人兩鑊 廿二世紀殺人網絡
向左嘔,向右嘔 向左走，向右走
姨媽傢私 宜家傢私
動心口服液 靜心口服液
water supply演唱會 Air Supply
陀鐵師姐 陀鎗師姐
姑思 Gucci
飛甩雞毛 Ferragamo
彭雙 彭丹
依依泣泣清保涼 星光熠熠耀保良
穿下隆 村上隆
出得0黎行, 預0左吐啖 出得黎行，預左要還
去”千王之王”据扒 去”扒王之王”据扒
鹽廿四 唐十二增肥丸
女子十二點前不落妝 女子十二樂坊
都市無情 都市閒情
東城肥樹 西城秀樹
蕉殺令 標殺令
金鼻來 金利來
滾蛋樂隊 滾石樂隊
一本大便 一本便利
倩女‘R’痕 倩女幽魂
西瓜大少 西關大少
Kill John Kill Bill

Goodbye

14th July, 2006.

Entry on 4am, 14/7/06:

Grandma's conditions deteriorated with septic peritonitis (腹膜炎) and despite a second emergency operation and transferral to intensive care unit (ICU) for further management.

There was a call at 2am informing about her conditions and everyone rushed back to hospital. On the taxi ride to the hospital, the radio was playing the ironic "念親恩" from Danny Chan and added futher to the solemn atmosphere. We finally got to the ICU and grandma was lying on the bed, looking puffed up with intubations and connections to all kinds of life supporting machines. Bags of fluids with drugs were spontaneously infused to her to boost up blood pressure but responds were only marginal, only making her swollen up further after the apparent kidney shutdown. Under influence of all the medications, she has already lost her consciousness and the remaining signs of life were represented by the four fine lines on the bedside monitor and the occasional bleep sounds.

The ICU Doctor interviewed with us about the deteriorated conditions and we decided to keep her comfort before the last moments without further painful interventions, after hearing a passage of conversation that I have spoke to others many times before.

Due to the need of work on the coming day, I took the last look of her and leaving mum and dad to accompany her. Despite trying hard, I failed to gain some short naps to catch up before tomorrow's busy day of work.

I cannot feel anything at all. There is no actual emotions, no tears, nothing. Having seen a lot of life and death situations at work before, I know what will happen very soon. I know I ought to feel sad, but nothing came through. I feel blank inside.



Entry on 3:45pm, 14/7/06

Mum called this morning during work saying grandma passed away on 9:15 am. I could feel the wave of sadness from the tone of mum's tearful, trembling voice. Dad sounded very upset as well through the phone. I know it is not easy for them to face the scene of death of their dearest but I myself am not too sure how to handle as well.

I don't have a religion but at least I do wish that there is a heaven, or there is elsewhere that she is now at and free from all her current sufferings.

I regret that there was not a proper chance for both of as to have a chat before she left us and since she became confused more than a week ago, I could no longer properly hear her voice since then besides some occasional vague mumbles. I know that I would miss her but there is nothing more I can do. Time cannot be turned back.

Grumpy Days

22nd July, 2006.

Got a bit grumpy at work recently and approached continuously by a lot of unfriendly people. C'est la vie.

The road seems really far away from the imaginary utopic world.

Multiple Choices

24th July, 2006.

Reading multiple choices books..... Multiple confusions.

Apparently the official model answers are:

a) False - The child must not be allowed to sleep with his parents. Otherwise, he will think that sleeping alone is fearful.
b) True - The bedroom light must be turned off, or he will think that darkness is unsafe. (Remark: !!)
c) False - Opening the bedroom door is just inviting him to come out. (Remark: !!!)
d) True - Sleep routines help to prepare the child to sleep. Excessive routine, however, should be avoided.
e) True - If he cries in bed, after making sure that he is safe, the crying should be ignored. The neighbours should be warned beforehand, though. (Remark: I like the last sentence.)

Good Mourning

26th July, 2006.

It was the day of Grandma's funeral today. In between prayers and religious gestures, everything happened smoothly with a vague tinge of sadness. She was lying quietly and everything seemed frozen by the stillness of time.

The hearse finally left the funeral parlour and she was brought to the cemetery. We scattered the handfuls of soil on her coffin and we all said our last farewell to her.